leaving

my freiend aytam Bayman (thats not his real name) just called me , and he said that he will be leaving canada back to Imarat by the end of the month.
there is a great feeling of emptyness creeping in. Aytam , was livign in toronto . I just realized how this whole time/place is crule. I realized that i only saw ayman hanfull of times, and many only for couple of hours. But the best time was our trip to montreal , it was really good times with lots of laughter that his wife said after we drove for 5min "7le, taha ow ayman la2o ba3ad , il hadami ma ra7 tikhlas" !
Ahmad , also left couple of weeks ago, wael might leave. w the hell am still doing here? I didnt come with anyone , i came before them all and i came alone . they came after and are or will leave . But i feel my staying here is affected by theirs.

(and why does every body tell me that i should satrt paying attention to my future.
ahmad befoe and now aytam and i could hear it in many other voices. Theya re right , in a way ;i havent accumilated any material waelth (or accumilation of anything).....)

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